it's been a while.. well, there wasn't something to write about, so i didn't write any more nonsense in my blog..
ahehehe..
today is the last day of our classes this year.. xD we had a Christmas party, with the usual "kainan" and exchange gifts..^^ love the tradition..
ahehe..
the only difference this year is that we didn't have The DANCE NIGHT, the most awaited program of the year.. OMG.. it just feels uhhh.. weird.. or feels like something is missing.. the excitement.. the cheers.. the dance steps.. everything was missing.. *sigh* too bad.. it's 'coz the Directress didn't want to have the dance night.. argh!!
instead of having the dance night, the PTA prepared a musical called "ALEX IN WONDERLAND".. we, patricio and i, watched it, and had fun singing the songs.. well, they were familiar.. go the distance (Hercules), at the beginning (Anastasia), the prayer (Charlotte Church), some songs from Hunch Back of Notre Dame, belle (Beauty and the Beast), and some other really familiar songs..^^ oh, i also heard background music from Ragnarok at Cole Mines.. haha!!
after the play, the song, "KUNG WALA KA" by Hale was played.. awww.. and perfect timing!! when i was singing the song and glanced at my right, i saw something.. uhh.. something.. that like.. irritated me.. @_@ and suddenly, i started crying.. over something that i should have already been able to handle..
*sigh*
there came more awkward moments.. and i was trying my best to SMILE, and LAUGH for them not to notice my uneasiness with the two people in sight.. it was at one point when i almost lost my control over my body.. i was about to walk out.. i was about to give up.. i was about to lose myself.. it would've turned out bad if it weren't for the promises that i remembered..
we ate at KFC, iceberg, king korn, and sang at karaoke..^^ it was when i got home that i realized something..
"woohoo!! it's already Christmas vacation!!"
well, over-all, it was a fun day..^^
well, today.. i was depressed about something.. the truth is i was really sad when i saw and heard something.. those were words that are just hard to accept and swallow.. i hate feeling this kind of feeling.. when i told myself that i would already move on.. i hate myself for letting my guard down.. and to let such emotions fill me.. an emotion that is commonly known as "jealousy".. i didn't want to feel that way.. but instead, it got worse.. i felt anger and irritation.. and it made me so weak.. *sigh* that was how my morning started..
the happy part?? well, you see.. i have this crush on one of the ROYAL [other 3rd year section] students.. *sigh* and today, i got his cell phone number, he stood beside me, he wrapped his arm 'round my shoulder [akbay] and i was just so happy.. i almost went MAD when i got to the THE room.. haha!! and i let out of the happiness that i felt there.. haha!!
it's been a long time since i felt that way.. haha!! well, actually, i was a bit down the past few days.. and it was because i thought that he knew that i had a crush on him.. and because of that, i thought that he purposely avoids me.. :( huwaa.. well, i guess i was wrong to think that way of him.. haha!!^^
oh well, 'nuff of this mushy stuff.. bye bye!!
well, i was absent today, because we picked up my sister from the airport..^^ she arrived today.. haha!!
well, actually, i'd like to think that "FINALLY WE'RE COMPLETE".. you know, the family-thing.. but i guess we can never be complete.. *sigh* it's so sad to think that we got used to this system now.. it's like it was natural for us.. to have one parent at a time..
we waited at the airport for 3 hours.. T_T it was so hot.. because we arrived there at 12noon and we saw my sister at about 3pm.. >.<;; so hot..
well, my sister was thin and kind of fair in complexion.. but now, she gained about 5 kilos.. huwaa.. and she was a little tanned.. 'coz of the heat in rome.. haha!! i was so jealous of her 'coz she got to go to the places that i wanted to go to.. T_T
ughh.. anyways, i'm really happy that she's back..^^ oh yeah, tomorrow's my brother's birthday.. wahaha!!
enough of this.. byerz!!
last night, i just confirmed something.. *sigh* i'm really getting tired of those kinds of things.. right now, i don't want to go to school anymore.. the truth is, i wanted to drop ever since this school year started.. but i also wanted to survive in that hell-like place.. *sigh*
well, i would like to drop now, but i made a promise to one of my friends that i wouldn't drop.. damn it.. i shouldn't have made that promise.. you see, i'm not someone who'll break her promise.. i always keep them.. because i hate people who break their promises.. IF YOU CAN'T KEEP A PROMISE, THEN DON'T MAKE ONE!!
the reason for all this?? actually, i was just controlling my anger and hiding it.. i knew that people talked behind my back.. i knew that they were always spreading things about me.. gawds!! even the teachers know about it.. who else can spread it?? of course, the student who know about it.. and who are those who know about it?? MY CLOSE FRIENDS, as i call them.. or NOT!! i was really mad when i knew that the teacher knew about it.. the hell with that!! someone told them.. it's not like they'll just know about it.. whoever that BITCH is, i'll search for a way to make that BITCH feel the way that i do..
i was pushed beyond the borderline when i heard some laughing during MATH TIME maybe 2 or 3 days ago.. they were talking about girls and those stuffs.. but they were talking about a particular girl.. hmm.. who could it be?? they were talking about that girl's legs and lips.. they said they were soft.. hmm.. whose legs?? whose lips?? i had a feeling of whom they were talking about.. but i still kept my cool and just continued to do my work.. they all continued to laugh.. and i heard something..
"kahit new student alam.." [even a new student knows..] a boy said.
damn it..
"siya naman nagkakalat non eh.. di ako.." [it's that person who spreads it, and not me..] the other guy replied.
damn it..
"anong hindi ikaw?? eh pati ikaw eh, sinasabi mo rin.." [what do you mean not you?? you also say those things..] the boy said again.
damn it..
then, i heard more laughing.. shit.. that made me remember of something that the guy [who said, "siya naman nagkakalat non eh.. di ako.."] and i talked about.. he said something about me spreading things 'bout us.. hmm.. it's so annoying..
still, i didn't jump to any conclusion.. i asked 2 people who were included with those laughing people.. and they said it.. i was the one being laughed at.. damn it..
i hate them.. i despise them.. i'm disgusted.. they're so pathetic.. what will they feel if that was done to them?? hmm.. let's see their faces when i humiliate them in front of the whole world..
i hate them.. I HATE THEM!!
my fingernail just died.. arghh!! it's because of JB and that stupid door!! damn it.. my index left finger hurts so much i wanna cut it.. arghh!! >.<;; shit.. one more thing that pisses my off is the mere fact that JB said, "Che!!" to me even though he caused this!! what an insensitive person.. i hate this!! and because of that, i can't do anything with my left index finger.. T_T i really, really hate this.. >.<;; and it's also difficult to take a bath.. difficult to dress.. difficult to undress [this is a big problem] hehe.. ^_~v and difficult to do all sorts of things.. i can't even use my left index finger to type.. damn!!
well, instead of being mad at JB, i just took care of my finger.. besides, i know that he wouldn't apologize to me even if i tell him to.. he's too stubborn.. he doesn't want to admit that it's his fault.. *sigh* anyway, i think that it's getting a bit better now.. >.<;;
oh yeah, exams are finished..^^ yehey!!
haha!! we had our SOC STUD recitation yesterday.. and i was so happy because i actually got 5 points.. my gawd.. haha!! i thought that my explanation was wrong.. but, it was right.. yeey!!^^
hmm.. oh yeah, i was late today.. haha!! it's my 1st late, so it's okay..^^ hmm what else?? oh yeah, i also brought the imbotido that i made yesterday.. omigod.. T_T haha!! i can't believe that i really made it.. ^_~v oh well, it's my way to catch up to THE subject.. 'coz i often get a low score on quizzes.. >.<;;
at lunch time, caren and i cooked the imbotido.. shiyet.. it didn't taste like imbotido at all.. haha!! i think it needed atchara to have taste.. T_T oh well.. at least i have grade..^^
hmm what else?? nothin' really happened this day.. haha!! ^_~v
uhmm.. about the marquee?? well, you see, i accidently looked at someone.. i always do that.. i dunno why.. ^_~v that someone then noticed and grabbed a chair, put it in front of me and sat there.. he asked me why i kept on looking at him.. [omigod] haha!! well, with that said, i think he also noticed my ACCIDENTAL LOOKS at him.. >.<;; but honestly, all of those are accidental.. i didn't intend any of it.. but i always look at his direction.. shit.. haha!! well, i didn't answer him, i just couldn't help but smile.. haha!! i couldn't believe that he was also watching me.. ^_~v well, i thought that we wouldn't talk because of something that he said to me.. haha!! and well, i thought that we would completely ignore each other.. O_o;; i just kept on smiling and covered my face with my hands.. haha!!
well, that's that..^^ one more thing..
I HATE THE PERSON WHO TOLD THE TEACHERS ABOUT A VERY CONFIDENTIAL THING!! I HATE YOU!!
KUNG SINO KA MAN, LUMABAS KA!! PAPATAYIN KITA!! MAHIYA KA NAMAN!! PWEDE BA?! AKO, ALAM KO NA GANO'N AKO, PERO SANA NAMAN HINDI NAKAKARATING SA IBA PANG TAO!! SATIN-SATIN LANG!!
actually, may kutob na ko kung sino yun eh.. haha!! ano gusto mo?! sabihin ko lahat ng BAHO mo?!?! GAGO KA PALA EH!! mas marami akong masasabing masasama tungkol sayo!! pero di ko sasabihin kasi magiging katulad mo lang ako!! alam kong alam mo kung sino ka!! at alam mo kung ano ang sinabi mo!!
"i thought you were my friend.. i thought i could trust you.. the HELL with that!!"
haha!! yeey!! wow.. i'm so happy.. it's coz our CAKE DECORATION went well.. haha!! i can't believe that we pulled it off.. whew!! *sigh of relief* haha!! omigod.. i thought that we wouldn't be able to do it right.. but thankfully, everything went fine.. hehe.. except for the fact that the ready whip that i bought that's worth 200 pesos was a waste.. i didn't even have a taste of it.. hate.. ^_~v but i'm still happy because our cake turned out well..^^ it looks like a little girl's birthday cake.. huwai..^^ so cute.. it has a chocolate milk icing for cover, a writing REYAL [royal+regal], flower marsh mallows, yellow chocolate, and vanilla icing for decorations..^^
hmm.. what else happened today?? nothing much, really.. i was just so happy about our CAKE..^^
oh yeah.. we also made detergent powder at chem.. haha!! we were actually supposed to make dishwashing liquid.. but the ingredients used for it was only brought at lunchtime, so we made the detergent powder instead.. the hell.. the detergent powder's smell was so strong.. arghh!! hehe.. it was hard to breathe at the lab.. but we still have to stay because we need to observe what happens.. ma'am annabelle said that it's an essay included in our periodical exam.. T_T anyways, we were able to finish it.. haha!!^^
bye bye >.<;;
"instrumento ba ko ng nasa itaas,
o sunud-sunuran ni satanas??"
i want to be remembered as the girl
who always smiles even when her heart is broken.
And the one that could always brighten up your day
even if she couldn't brighten up her own.
For starters I'm LhuKhE (actually it's plain old Luke, but why settle for something ordinary right?)
I for one, am a typical 14-year old girl in the neighborhood, a smart-ass bitch with no pretentions. I'm loud and obnoxious. I laugh all the time, mababaw lang kaligayahan ko. You'll always see me wearin a smile (duh! as if you can really wear 'em). I am moody (harhar). Im a perfectionist, I instantly find your flaws, so if you're trying to project that you're gorgeous stay away from me, Im not perfect but at least im no pretender like you. Thay all say i'm childish. TRUE. I act like i'm one of the boys. Maybe because I grew up with lotsa guys. Im mataray and I know that. Don't be surprised if my "tarayism" (damn wataword!) suddenly pops up. I'm quite frank but I am careful with my words. Im somewhat tactless. I treat people the way they wanna be treated. I don't think im responsible but I can always be counted on. Im approachable (dont worry I don't bite [hard]). I know how to sing. I love to dance. Im God fearing. Im not spoiled, Im just manipulative.
I am an emotional tearjerker. When im around friends I am the LAST ONE TO CRY, but ALONE I cry buckets of tears. I think im CORNY, but still, I make people LAUGH. I LOVE laughing all the time. I don't know myself that well. There are time that even I surprise myself. I wanna name my baby boy JOHN JEROME, and my baby girl RIEKA GAIL. Their nicknames would be JOHN and RY. I trust people easily. (This gets me into lots of trouble.) I shot an almost REAL arrow using a GENUINE bow. I almost KILLED 2 of my classmates. In short, i'm the TYPICAL BATANG SUWAIL. SLEEPING is one of my favorite ACTIVITIES. I always sleep somewhere between 3-5PM. And that includes TIME in school. I pretend to have a fever so that I can sleep at the clinic. I CUT CLASSES but still a TOP student.
I love volleyball and swimming, the color PINK, the numbers 3, 6, 9, 13, 17, 20, 27, 224. I definitely hate cockroahces.. eek!!~
// nuWebe //
"~ Never resign yourself to fate, Even if you cry and feel anger, it's so powerful that you can't resist. Unfair but feel the top pleasure, The law of "Love". ~
"you kept my feet on the solid ground, u listend wid ur hart..
u told me i cud be sum1.. u made me fil i cud do anythng, go anywer..
if only i jst wud.. YOU r d wind behnd my wings, ur luv has brot me thru.."
mAh siLenCeD seLF // LhuKhE
i'M noT bRokeN // aNgeL
i LoVe RocK muSic // GeneLLe
saDisTic TendenCies // RieKa -ii-
bLuRReD viSionZ // JoLeEn
kEeP mE aLivE // eVonE
cRap FoR dWeEbS // JeN
kyTa'z bLogGiE
sTep inTo mY woRLd // hAnnaH
dRop dEad goRgeouS // RicH
makFawa // bieL
i'LL caTch ThoSe TeaRs // LoReeN
inFiniTe // KiM
dReaMin' oF yoU // aRRiaNe
sHopaHoLiC // beTTa
jHem'z xaNga
kuYa noRieL'z xAnga
mY aNachRonisTic ThoughTs
aNgeLs waLkinG aMonG uS
don'T iRk mE!
YouR LoVe sToRy
FaKe a LiE
oBscuRed souL // moNica a // deVianTaRT
LibeRi FaTaLi
SawaMaTz ~ pHoTokiCho!!
I do believe that we'll meet again
even if we were reborn a thousand times.
I'd find you and I'd still fall in love with you..."
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December 2005
You were the reason why I smiled, why I laughed,
but you were also the reason why I closed myself from the world;
You made me feel like I was important and loved,
but you were also the person who made me feel like I had no worth.
Drenched in tears, here I stand, staring at your fading silhouette,
I was broken for you were the only reason why I lived;
My own existence had no meaning and for me the sun has set,
So I am now a heartbroken soul, with no more than my words to give.
I am no hopeless romantic nor a helpless lover,
Now I'm all alone for what you've done;
Now, I have no heart, it's been tightly covered,
And you're the reason why my feelings are gone.
And now, all faded away, I am no more but a wandering soul,
A lost girl in this hell-like place we call our home or so it seems;
Your smile, your words, your promises, everything turned to coal,
As all of those burned and everything became a dream.
~LhukhE/o9/RyKa~
woohoo!! Christmas vacation OFFICIALLY starts today!! [12.17.05]
i'm kinda surpirsed to know and SEE that they're finally together.. well, of course she and HE didn't tell me about their.. uhhh.. "relationship".. but hey, i'm cool with that..^^ so much for being FRIENDS!!
about the layout.. hmm.. the SOLITUDE-thingy.. just like the idea.. and well, i think that girl at the left is cute..^^ i wonder what she looks like when she smiles.. ^_~v
hehe.. ^_~v anyways, i built this blog because i wanna keep track of what i had done because i have.. well, i have a hard time remembering things.. or maybe i'm just gettin' old.. shit.. no, that can't be it.. i'm only 14.. T_T
hey, tag me, k?? luv ya'll.. mwuahugzotyt.. *hugz*
Breathing with us, watching over us
I am your Angel..
I'll be your wings when you've forgotten how to fly"