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Friday, July 22, 2005

i don't give a damn!!

dunno.. i felt like being a snob today.. the hell i care about what others think.. i don't give a damn on what they think of me.. i was in a bad mood earlier, so anyone who messed with me took a taste of my "TARAYISM".. yeah, even the FORMER person that i loved experienced it.. why should i care about the comments that he said?! he's a MERE classmate to me now.. and as for the others, they're also JUST my classmates.. hell.. even if they die right in front of me, i'll just pass by their dead bodies and show no emotion at all.. after all, they're nothing but my classmates.. people who are with me at school.. not to mention, ANNOYING people.. they don't make an impact in my life.. well yeah, maybe one or two did.. but now, they don't mean a thing to me.. i couldn't care less..

*sigh*

maybe the reason that i was like that at school was because of all the things that i'm supposed to do.. arghhh!! i can't believe this.. so many things to do!! and on social studies subject ALONE!! grrr.. i hate that subject AT ALL!!

1. we have to memorize the WORLD MAP 'coz the test was moved earlier to 07.26 [tuesday]
2. we have to finish the project.. arghh!! it'll also be submitted on tuesday..
3. we have to make a summary of the SONA..

how can i get all of these done?!?! and i still have to memorize EUROPE and AFRICA.. arghh!! damn it all..!!

anyways, i think this is enough.. i know my SO NEGATIVE post is annoying you.. bye bye now.. oh, and for those who got irritated, you'll die someday anyways.. yeah, i know, i WILL TOO.. SOONer than you will.. haha!!

RyKa cried and laughed @ 7:17 PM

i ReaLLy haTe This woRLd //--aLoNe --// sO muCh ThaT i waNna cRy

mY siLeNceD seLF

RieKa // LhukhE
"instrumento ba ko ng nasa itaas,
o sunud-sunuran ni satanas??"

yEp.. iT's mEh..

i want to be remembered as the girl
who always smiles even when her heart is broken.
And the one that could always brighten up your day
even if she couldn't brighten up her own.

For starters I'm LhuKhE (actually it's plain old Luke, but why settle for something ordinary right?)

I for one, am a typical 14-year old girl in the neighborhood, a smart-ass bitch with no pretentions. I'm loud and obnoxious. I laugh all the time, mababaw lang kaligayahan ko. You'll always see me wearin a smile (duh! as if you can really wear 'em). I am moody (harhar). Im a perfectionist, I instantly find your flaws, so if you're trying to project that you're gorgeous stay away from me, Im not perfect but at least im no pretender like you. Thay all say i'm childish. TRUE. I act like i'm one of the boys. Maybe because I grew up with lotsa guys. Im mataray and I know that. Don't be surprised if my "tarayism" (damn wataword!) suddenly pops up. I'm quite frank but I am careful with my words. Im somewhat tactless. I treat people the way they wanna be treated. I don't think im responsible but I can always be counted on. Im approachable (dont worry I don't bite [hard]). I know how to sing. I love to dance. Im God fearing. Im not spoiled, Im just manipulative.

I am an emotional tearjerker. When im around friends I am the LAST ONE TO CRY, but ALONE I cry buckets of tears. I think im CORNY, but still, I make people LAUGH. I LOVE laughing all the time. I don't know myself that well. There are time that even I surprise myself. I wanna name my baby boy JOHN JEROME, and my baby girl RIEKA GAIL. Their nicknames would be JOHN and RY. I trust people easily. (This gets me into lots of trouble.) I shot an almost REAL arrow using a GENUINE bow. I almost KILLED 2 of my classmates. In short, i'm the TYPICAL BATANG SUWAIL. SLEEPING is one of my favorite ACTIVITIES. I always sleep somewhere between 3-5PM. And that includes TIME in school. I pretend to have a fever so that I can sleep at the clinic. I CUT CLASSES but still a TOP student.

I love volleyball and swimming, the color PINK, the numbers 3, 6, 9, 13, 17, 20, 27, 224. I definitely hate cockroahces.. eek!!~

// nuWebe //

"~ Never resign yourself to fate, Even if you cry and feel anger, it's so powerful that you can't resist. Unfair but feel the top pleasure, The law of "Love". ~

nOw scReam!!

"you kept my feet on the solid ground, u listend wid ur hart..
u told me i cud be sum1.. u made me fil i cud do anythng, go anywer..
if only i jst wud.. YOU r d wind behnd my wings, ur luv has brot me thru.."

LooK baCk

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mY masTeRpiEce

A Dream

You were the reason why I smiled, why I laughed,
but you were also the reason why I closed myself from the world;
You made me feel like I was important and loved,
but you were also the person who made me feel like I had no worth.

Drenched in tears, here I stand, staring at your fading silhouette,
I was broken for you were the only reason why I lived;
My own existence had no meaning and for me the sun has set,
So I am now a heartbroken soul, with no more than my words to give.

I am no hopeless romantic nor a helpless lover,
Now I'm all alone for what you've done;
Now, I have no heart, it's been tightly covered,
And you're the reason why my feelings are gone.

And now, all faded away, I am no more but a wandering soul,
A lost girl in this hell-like place we call our home or so it seems;
Your smile, your words, your promises, everything turned to coal,
As all of those burned and everything became a dream.

~LhukhE/o9/RyKa~

weLcomE..^^

welcome to my aBySs oF soLiTuDe!! ^_~v

woohoo!! Christmas vacation OFFICIALLY starts today!! [12.17.05]

i'm kinda surpirsed to know and SEE that they're finally together.. well, of course she and HE didn't tell me about their.. uhhh.. "relationship".. but hey, i'm cool with that..^^ so much for being FRIENDS!!

about the layout.. hmm.. the SOLITUDE-thingy.. just like the idea.. and well, i think that girl at the left is cute..^^ i wonder what she looks like when she smiles.. ^_~v

hehe.. ^_~v anyways, i built this blog because i wanna keep track of what i had done because i have.. well, i have a hard time remembering things.. or maybe i'm just gettin' old.. shit.. no, that can't be it.. i'm only 14.. T_T

hey, tag me, k?? luv ya'll.. mwuahugzotyt.. *hugz*

"There are angels walking among us,
Breathing with us, watching over us
I am your Angel..
I'll be your wings when you've forgotten how to fly"